Booored

its been a while I saw her.,.,hoping I can on next 3rd Oct. really looking forward to it. I just become numb and nervous when I see her each and every time.,can't help it.,., well its been a complicated relation.,I am a lot confused and tangled. friends told me to try change my self in any kind of possible way..,but I can't truly.,. not even I am sleeping.,its her thoughts that keeps me running. hope my meeting is going to be a turning point.., its my B.day on 3rd hoping for a real surprise.,.,of-course from her....... I having my fingers crossed.,.,